Damn it, I am one horrible mess. Damn it, am I screwin' things up bigtime. Damn it, I don't know if there ever will be a sense of normalcy to my life. Ever?????

So, what else can I do but remember some of the things my daughter has said to me lately.

What do you think it feels like to be a baby in a mommy's tummy?

Mama, I am sooooo thirsty. I feel like I have been walking through the desert.

Mama, I am so very thirsty. I really need a drink. I don't want to die!!!!

I want to have Adrian, Dominic and Cassie over to the house to put on a play. The living room will be the stage. But there won't be an audience because I don't want anyone to get fright stage.

Mama, do you know what makes me happy? YOU DO!